teleport.

If I close my eyes right now, maybe I'll be with them. Safe. If I close my eyes then, maybe I'd be there. Loved. If I close my eyes after, maybe I'd be home. Alone. So I close my eyes. Shut them tight. And listen to the mockings and ignorance of what my life has become.

in a perfect world...

...none of this would be happening. ...I wouldn't have to worry about you. ...suicide wouldn't be the option. ...the call would not drop. ...you would be okay. ...I wouldn't feel so numb. ...there would be no one. and I wouldn't just feel alone. I would live the part. I would be alone. ...but the world in which we preside is nowhere near perfect.

nothing.

I have not written anything in a long while. What I feel cannot be put into words.